In Love (post Valentine)
Valentine’s Day is for lovers, but most of us probably should have just spent it alone.
If I honestly looked at most of my life, I’d have to ask: What am I in love with?
What do I do all things at all costs to protect?
What will I go to any length to defend?
Me.
My way of life.
Most days I seem to do whatever it takes to maintain the image I have of myself. I’ll fight to protect my way of life above all else. I’ll seek pleasure for myself at the cost of someone else.
And I even wish I could say it was disgusting. But I would just enjoy the chance to be introspective enough to call myself disgusting.
My thoughts, actions, and treatment of others all end up reflecting on some end of self-preservation.
Why? If I’m pitiful, it’s really just a way of enjoying my self-pity. Rats.
Day after day, week after week, I’m unable to see the needs of those closest to me because I’m constantly juggling my own needs.
And if I can’t see the needs of those closest to me, how am I ever to be attuned to everyone else?
Valentine’s Day is for lovers, but most of us probably should have just spent it alone. Because that’s who we truly love.
God, have mercy on me, a sinner. Give me the strength to be set free from myself today, to live in the Hope of a future not my own. Help me to be gentle with those when they fail, because I will need even more grace. Amen.
I'm a runner, writer, thinker, and pastor. I love to agitate people's consciences. I like to spend my time reading, running, and relaxing with family & friends.